well, life is a strange thing. complex. and theres something so odd about life - some of the things that matter you always knew would happen - it was always there in your dreams. (i mean literally) and other times there are things you wish had been in your dreams so that you would have had something to hold onto. 
im always amazed to find that when i know whats coming - and when someone will do something that will ultimately make things hard on me - i dont resent it, its just what they do because of who they are. and where they need to go.
 maybe life really is a forever thing....maybe it happened before - but that was just the practice run. to get the basics down.

i believe in personal choice - in a big sense - i believe that certain things in life will happen, because you chose them earlier. thats what my "fate" is - no one else chose it for you - no ominous god causing you problems - you take the problems because you like where they place you in life. i dont mean you choose to be an accountant, i mean you choose to do things (sometimes not brilliant things) because you somehow know subconsciously that it will culminate in you lying on a roof somewhere not just accepting but pleased at where your life has led you - where you have led you.
  maybe one can't fail at life.